Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Confession No. 2: Terminating the Procrastinator

I am a chronic procrastinator.

I always feel like I've been gifted with the ability to let things accumulate and neglect the most urgent and most necessary. When, at the end of the day, I find myself trying to make sense of what had just happened, I naturally deny that the blame is on me (of course). So it has become now a habit that I blame every little thing around me: my cup of coffee for not being strong enough to keep me awake, the radio station for all the great and wonderful songs it is NOT playing, the weather for not keeping up with me, etc. (I hate it when I use the term 'etc' because I don't know how put the next words).

I learned that there's a price you pay for ignoring things. There's always a relative consequence for anything you've taken for granted, say a chore you missed doing, a paperwork left untouched, a motorcycle you forgot to refuel, or whatever. You may be able to make one last attempt to rescue the situation and sure you might succeed, but the fact is that the time you wasted doing otherwise can never be taken back. Especially if you don't have the luxury of time, which is also true. And when time is all you have, you might as well spend it in the most maximal, in the most appropriate, in the most remarkable, and in the most passionate ways. Yeah I know, easier said than done.

So what else do I tend to procrastinate and ignore? Right words in the right place, right motives, right actions, encouraging thoughts, good conversations, true friendships, real love and feelings? I dunno. Perhaps.

But then, I sure don't want to regret all the right things in this world just because I've taken them for granted, or because I failed to settle in my life what is most necessary. I don't want to look back to my life and say at the end of the day, "ay sayang! I should've done that!".

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